So while visiting my new niece (she’s a month now!) I realized I now have two nephews: one 8 one 5. And two nieces: one almost 3 and the newborn Eva who I came to visit. As obsessed as I am with my little munchkins I realized I in no way have that maternal clock situation going on. In fact, the best part of watching my loves is when I get to give them back…jk…kinda. I 100% want kids in the future but even as I witness all my high school friends getting married and having kids I feel no envy. I think because I’m so goal driven right now I can’t imagine having to put everything on hold. Not to say mothers completely put everything on hold BUT kids are work! Work I am in no way ready for. I have been around them my whole life babysitting since I was 10 years old so maybe there’s that too. With my fair share of crazy kids in my life, perhaps I just want to get something done for me first before I’m stuck with one I can’t give back at the end of the day…
Geez, did you hear all those “I’s”??. There it is, proof ladies and gentlemen. Clearly it’s all about me, but I think that’s cause I know when the time comes I definitely want to be all about him or her with no reservation. And I’ve watched so many parents have kids before they’re ready and struggle between taking care of themselves and taking care of their kids. I’m not about the struggle. First, I need to find a husband anyway. lol
With that, I do commend all the moms doing it big out there. You are superwomen.